Fake Relationship

So Ive liked someone for a good lil minute now and last Sunday, I just realized that I'm in a fake relationship lol. Sounds a lil weird, huh? But not really. I love the time being spent but I must admit, these are bf/gf activities I guess and I really dont know what I was thinking. I never stopped liking this person and spending just about every weekend with him...c'mon Janee' geez!! Its just frustrating being around someone I cant have, especially when your official title is his best friend. So in order to stay in my place, so to speak, Ive decided to try and take a break from this person. I will see this person on my bday, but I need a lil space without him noticing lol. I cant explain to him why I dont want to spend a day with him or whatever, unless I make plans on purpose or lie....without having to explain how I feel about him and how I want to be with him, make him happy and all that other sickening stuff lol. UGH...this sucks bc I love being around him and I know it sucks bc I could very well be wasting my time and Im sure he doesnt take out the time to think about this crap. I think its funny that I had that revelation while I'm reading Steve Harvey's book "Act like a Lady, Think Like a Man". Interesting read thus far...lookout for blogs about some of his topics or the book in general...