Its Been Awhile....2011 Bad Admittance

Feeling some kinda way about last night... bestie bday dinner and my other bestie is there with his gf....hmmm...made a point of not sitting to close to him and her because I didnt know how I would respond. The dinner went well, until I was alone with my thoughts, driving home alone. Honestly, I was feeling really salty. I dont think it really had anything to do with my bestie#2 directly, but here is my hypothesis, as of this morning. I DONT AND REPEAT DONT want him or the situation (definitely not the situation) but seeing them together hit me. See, bestie #2, as of the past few years has been that "one". One meaning the type of man I want and can see myself with forever...he is the prototype of some sorts but not mine, if that makes any sense. I guess I felt some kinda way because other than highschool, Ive never witnessed him in the "act". The gf saying oh baby this and that, handling the food issues, him assisting her with her jacket even lol....it was weird. And even weirder that it didnt hit me until an hour or so later lol. I am in the point of my life where I want love but only if its packaged up the way God wants it to be. I am not that "random woman"; I am the hopeless romantic that will be the awesome blessing and compliment to my mans life and vice versa and I wouldnt want it any other way. So maybe it was good to see that---even though I know hes not it for me, like soooo many others believe, it was good to see that she was on point as far as how she treated him. She better keep it up...