Relationships

Man this is work!!! THE END...naw seriously...this is my second relationship, in my 24 years on this earth. If you knew my history, its not as bad as it sounds lol. I was always the one with "all these guys" hanging around me, which I have encountered quite a few interesting ones...but it was only hanging. It never went into more than that and in most cases, wasnt because I lost interest but because we were on different levels. Either they were full of crap or @ssholes or whatever...but I have recently learned that this has helped and harmed me. I am soooo open to this relationship. I really like him and me deciding to be with him was the right decision; im taking a chance and trying really really hard to let my guard down. Ive been trying to figure out why Im so hard on him and I think its because Im not use to a short period of "hanging"...and then relationship talk is brought up. I'm just use to staying in one stage, hanging, which I have said on SEVERAL occas. I HATE and it just freaked me out that it kept moving along. I have to say I was very hesistant and still freaked out but I dont want to miss out on the "possibility". You never know...but anyway like I said in a previous blog, its a J-O-B! Learning not only info about them, but learning the moods and sarcasm and getting to know their vibe. I know, I know...it takes time and patience and I think that Im going to continue to give this a chance. Stay tuned!! BTW Any new comer relationship advice???

Boyfriend

So ladies and gentleman...I have a boyfriend! Wow...are you shocked? lol Well I really like him and enjoy the time we spend together but me being me...pickin' at what seems to be nothing there. I think I'm just afraid to let someone in, let someone get close to me and scared to get hurt again. I have to realize that its apart of life, I should try things out because you never know. I keep having these bad thoughts pop in and out and I dont know whether to ignore them or keep them somewhat in the frontal lobe lol. I want this, I want this to work, I guess I just want things to progress faster so that my normal comfort level is reached. I guess I cant rush it and that I should take my time, but put in time to really get to know him better. I'm looking forward to seeing where this could possibly go but my guard is still up at the moment...will keep you posted