My friend...

So this person has no idea how I feel about him, none. I mean, yes, it has come out a few years ago that I was feelin' him but he doesn't know how I talk about him. My friend is so good to me. Considerate, for the most part, fun to be around, shows me everyday that there are good men in this world. I honestly think the world of him and if I could make him happy, show him what a good woman looks and feels like, I would--without a second thought. We are really good friends though...it has came up before, as stated so I wouldn't dare put it out there again. I am tired of the here and there, randomly chillin things, I want something real and I know that I could be fulfilled by him. I deny that I have feelings for him but I know that if he was to get with anybody, I would be ridiculously jealous. I don't want to share him lol...just my thoughts...

Rude People

So these are my thoughts for today...
I have experienced a lot of rudeness this weekend and today. I for one, really dislike people, in general. I think people are ridiculous and its really sad. Having people complain about stupid crap gets on my nerves, having people say one thing and do another gets on my nerves and people dealing with me when they want to, gets on my nerves. I could go on, but anyway as far as work today. I wanted to slap this guy with the book he was buying. He asked for a book, but was talking to me like I didnt know what the hell I was doing. When I told we didnt have 2 books in stock he smirked at me and looked at me like I was lying, while mumbling something under his breath. After that I watched him slap money on the counter, while the assistant manager had her hand out. He's just rude and ignorant. It doesnt make any sense. Just a rude bastard. If you take offense to anything in this or do this, then youre rude and I dont care...so HA

My letter...

The words that are in this letter could never describe the hurt and pain youve caused me. Hours upon hours, I sit and let you vent, but never get asked, how was your day. A relationship will never be, but you did use me. The emotional, spiritual and physical relationship 24/7. I love you, that'll never change but NEVER get it twisted I was never one to "hang". I want you to know that even though I love you, I was never a groupie and you arent perfect, neither am I...I am clearly a work in progress, but I saw things in you, you thought your ex took with her. I believed in you and prayed for you, when you couldnt...sorry to hear that you could only take me in doses. There were all the reasons in the world not to be with you, presented to me, everyday but I looked past it and still wanted you. We have a 7 yr friendship beyond all this and at this point in time, I cant be a friend to you. Not because you didnt feel the same way, but because your words were hurtful. They stung me to the core, but I thank you. I have the ability to become an even stronger woman and to clear my path for the right man to step in. I love you but I love myself more...no more playing the fool...its my time. Maybe friendship can come later...much later...

My fantasy...(lol..lil lame poem)

My fantasy is not the norm...
I want something new & exciting for you
I mean...
its true..I want you to make it storm
for me-
between my legs
but I want you to beg
for me
want me
need me...
Trenchcoat
High heels
something sexy underneath...
pleasure upon pleasure
me pleasing you
in, under and on top of the sheets
Massages
Lap Dances, just to name a few...
my goal is to make you blackout
before the night is thru.
You may be wondering how could this be
Please trust, I have the ability...

This is my fantasy...for you and me...

Love??

So Im sitting here thinking about the term "love"...many have asked the question, what is love...
By definition, love is affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests. This is my non-textbook definition of love. I loved someone...may not have been the right one, but I can honestly say I experienced it. Love is truly an emotion that can be the greatest emotion and the worst to feel. Its accepting the things that you may not agree with, but youre so full of this emotion called love that it doesnt matter. Its being there emotionally, spiritually & physically, its being there through the good, the bad and the ugly. Its realizing that there is perfection in the non perfect person, its knowing that this person was made especially for me, truly heaven sent and being able to compliment my life, instead of complicate my life...I could go on and on... God has always loved us unconditionally and I'm waiting for the one he will send down my path...Real love is worth me waiting on, I havent given up hope... What is love to you?