Whats your purpose?

For you to take the time out to call an text, when you made the decision to let me go, whats your purpose? You may think its because they are realizing what they had is now gone...No No No...that cant be it. You see, if there was a true appreciation for another, you wouldnt have let me go the first time. In some cases, 1st, 2nd, 3rd...etc... I find it amazing how one can fall back into something where they have clearly been before. Clearly speaking for myself...1st and foremost. Its some hard s*%#, some fo real feelings...its even harder to keep getting a taste of what you have declared forbidden fruit, to only set yourself up for failure. Why do we do this? Whats the purpose?? In some cases, it can be cut and dry or a power trip over the other person...but somehow, when you analyze it and you know youre wrong, it can still blow up in your face. When youve made up your mind that someone is not right for you, the signs always...ALWAYS...present themselves, before you get back comfortable. I ask myself...whats the purpose of getting pissed, having violent thoughts, cursing them out, telling them not to contact you, for them to clearly disobey or respect your wishes and for them to keep trying to put that foot in the door...its crazy. I refuse to enter into that cycle again. Yep, I did what I did bc I wanted to, not to satisfy you, so I ask you, what is your purpose, in my life? To compliment it or complicate it?