Starting Over

I meet a lot of people. Those that are strictly friends and those that have the potential to be more-and sometimes that person makes it hard to decipher which category they should fall into. For me personally, starting over is scary. You get use to the same person for so many years, things happen and youre forced out of that "security" so to speak. Meeting new people is a job....finding someone youre interested in, is a job. Its a job that I like to apply for but the interviewing process is hell. I dont think that I'm a complex person. I knoe I want someone in my life that I connect with on a friendship and lover level, but bc of how my life has played out, thus far, that second level is a mystery. Ive never really been courted and thats what im asking for. Unlike several others, intimacy is intimate lol---meaning I'm very into you, only you and you have me 100%. With that being said, the friendship level is important to me. Its very true that it doesnt matter how long you can know a person, that can still f*&% you over, but I need to build up trust, that security before the second part is entered fully. If you have my attention believe me, I'm putting 100 in the friendship dept. I'm working in the field to figure out what position best suits me. I'm asking questions to get to know the job in full detail to make sure this job is what I want to do. During the interview and the work in the field, you should get a better understanding of me and figure out what type of employee I would be. To sum all this up---time is important. If I'm not experienced, help me/train me...time is of the essence. **didnt proofread so igg the typos**