Boyfriend

So ladies and gentleman...I have a boyfriend! Wow...are you shocked? lol Well I really like him and enjoy the time we spend together but me being me...pickin' at what seems to be nothing there. I think I'm just afraid to let someone in, let someone get close to me and scared to get hurt again. I have to realize that its apart of life, I should try things out because you never know. I keep having these bad thoughts pop in and out and I dont know whether to ignore them or keep them somewhat in the frontal lobe lol. I want this, I want this to work, I guess I just want things to progress faster so that my normal comfort level is reached. I guess I cant rush it and that I should take my time, but put in time to really get to know him better. I'm looking forward to seeing where this could possibly go but my guard is still up at the moment...will keep you posted