Lesson Learned

So I'm not an angel...never claimed to be but feelings happened years before and just seem to get even more complicated. I liked my friend, he liked me, messed around and it was a cycle. I ended it, he got married, he rubbed it in my face, I wanted to punch him, marriage didnt last a yr, they separated and he starts calling me. I try to help him sort through his feelings, being there for him and in the end, I get kicked to the curb. Used in all aspects but I got back up from the fall and became stronger. Knowing all along I am better than what he was barely giving me and one day I decided that I was done. I was done, he didnt want what I wanted so it is what it is. He claimed he wasnt ready for a relationship and maybe 3 or 4 months later, he was with a chick, out of state. We started messing around again, before I knew about her and it was strictly on some lets chill, no feelings----to fast forward that was the just of our relationship until he decided to move out of state with her, but we had stopped chillin hard back in Dec. Anyway we saw each other recently, we dont see each other often and dont talk often but he tries to take it back there. This particular blog is in response to a comment that he made. "Back in 2007, you didnt care if I was technically went someone so whats the difference?" The difference is, you bastard, I want more. You want everything else but a relationship, which is what I want so why should I give you what you want? Why should I repeat history? You had the chance to be with me and have what I had to offer and you passed, so I think I will do the same. You damn right, I am a tease to you bc I want you to suffer, more than you already claim. I want you to think about what you could have constantly and yes this is wrong and my evil side but what can I say?? He tried to hurt me from that comment---I thought about it bc that wasnt a proud moment but I didnt want to respond bc I dont want him to think he has that control of me. I am not the same person I was in 07. You made me toughen up and I thank you for the shhhhiiii you put me through and lesson learned baby. May you continue to fiend for me and I continue to find the blessing God has for me. My mistake for even entertaining you and your mess. Its not a proud moment and I pray for forgiveness. Its obvious our friendship cant be revived bc you forgot how to just be my friend. I love you but I cant let you continue to try and hurt me bc everytime you find a lil something I'm put on the back burner and when stuff turns sour, you come back----come back to the affection you claim you dont get at home. Well its not my problem and I'm tired of guys using my because their homefront isnt straight. Thats not my job and I'm not claiming that title...Sorry.